Brokeness & Forgiveness

In the silence . . .
Trust in God . . . He knows what you are going through.

An altar of brokenness . . .

He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.

Psalm 40:2 (ESV)

A few years into our marriage, my wife, Alena, and I faced an intense season of being tested and squeezed. Every area of our lives that could be shaken was shaken. We found ourselves being squeezed in our finances, our jobs, our marriage and our family.

During this time, the Lord led us to deal with our own personal darkness and, ultimately, be honest about the worst of who we were. It felt like a cave of sorrow, but the Lord shone His bright light on all the darkness in our souls bringing forth an honesty and depth we had never known.

We were broken. Completely broken. I was saved. I knew God and I loved Him, but in this moment in time, my knowledge and love for God deepened to a place of true freedom.

In the Old Testament, when people encountered God, they would build an altar and worship there, naming the place based on the revelation they had gained. During this season, Alena and I built a spiritual altar called “Brokenness” and worshipped there. We still visit this altar often, and each time, we’re reminded of the deep well under the surface of our lives that calls us to leave the shallows and plunge once more into the depths of God.

As we walked through our season of brokenness, we turned our hearts to the Lord, and the truth of Romans 8:12–17 became our refuge. In this passage, Paul writes: “For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, ‘Abba! Father!’” (Romans 8:14–15, ESV). Understanding the grace of God is what allows us to step into new levels of freedom.

Galatians 5:1 (NIV) tells us: “It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.” Jesus didn’t set us free to continue living the same way. He doesn’t want us to stay in our prison cell with the door wide open, just standing there. Jesus set us free so we could leave the prison that once held us captive and live a new life that’s truly free!

Worship, in itself, is not just a song. It’s not only words projected on a screen or a band on a stage. Worship involves determining in your heart that you’ll serve the Lord in spite of the condition of your circumstances. Worship is the song of your life being sung by the choir of your heart as you choose to honor your heavenly Father above all else. As Alena and I walked through our difficult season, we learned to worship from a new place. We stood firm and never again took the burden of slavery upon ourselves. And now, we worship from a new place of freedom.

As a songwriter, I love to express my heart to God through music and lyrics. After the initial blow of our struggles, I sat at the piano in our house and wrote these words in a matter of minutes:

You saved my life from death

when I was all but defeated

You spoke Your promises

David Moore

Brokenness . . .

Sorrow and brokeness . . .

“That's the thing about pain...it demands to be felt.” 
― John GreenThe Fault in Our Stars

 

 

“When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.” 
― Kahlil Gibran

 

 

“She was a genius of sadness, immersing herself in it, separating its numerous strands, appreciating its subtle nuances. She was a prism through which sadness could be divided into its infinite spectrum.” 
― Jonathan Safran FoerEverything Is Illuminated

 

 

“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.” 
― Charles DickensGreat Expectations

 

 

“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.” 
― C.S. LewisA Grief Observed

 

 

“We need never be ashamed of our tears.” 
― Charles DickensGreat Expectations

 

 

 

“Do not apologize for crying. Without this emotion, we are only robots.” 
― Elizabeth GilbertEat, Pray, Love

 

 

“I'm lonely. And I'm lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs. And it scares the ------- out of me to be this lonely because it seems catastrophic.” 
― Augusten BurroughsDry

 

 

“To weep is to make less the depth of grief.” 
― William Shakespeare

 

 

“I remember watching the mascara tears flood the ivories and I thought, "It's OK to be sad." I've been trained to love my darkness.” 
― Lady Gaga

 

 

“Someday, we’ll run into each other again, I know it.
Maybe I’ll be older and smarter and just plain better. If that happens,
that’s when I’ll deserve you. But now, at this moment, you can’t hook 
your boat to mine, because I’m liable to sink us both.” 
― Gabrielle ZevinMemoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac

 

 

“Deep in earth my love is lying
And I must weep alone.” 
― Edgar Allan Poe

 

 

“Those who do not weep, do not see.” 
― Victor HugoLes Misérables

 

 

“joy and sorrow are inseparable. . . together they come and when one sits alone with you . . remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.” 
― Kahlil Gibran

 

 

Inventory:

"Four be the things I am wiser to know:
Idleness, sorrow, a friend, and a foe.
Four be the things I'd been better without:
Love, curiosity, freckles, and doubt.
Three be the things I shall never attain:
Envy, content, and sufficient champagne.
Three be the things I shall have till I die:
Laughter and hope and a sock in the eye.” 
― Dorothy ParkerThe Complete Poems of Dorothy Parker

 

 

“Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain.” 
― William FaulknerThe Wild Palms

 

 

“Behind every trial and sorrow that He makes us shoulder, God has a reason.” 
― Khaled HosseiniA Thousand Splendid Suns

 

 

“Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.” 
― William ShakespeareMacbeth

 

 

“Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand.” 
― W.B. YeatsThe Collected Poems

 

 

“Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide!

There are a hundred places where I fear
To go,--so with his memory they brim!
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him!” 
― Edna St. Vincent Millay

Allow nothing to hold you back . . . not even sorrow
Allow God to heal you and carry you in His wings . . .

Broken . . .

You and I both have heard about how 'Brokenness' is 'good' for us. How it softens our hearts and makes us sensitive and responsive to the Holy Spirit and how it develops spiritual maturity and character. And Psalms 51:17 is always quoted to support this teaching.

Psa. 51:17(KJV) The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

Let's talk about this scripture. The reason this scripture is always used is because it is the ONLY scripture in the Bible that 'seems' to say anything 'positive' about brokenness. I believe that a teaching should be based upon 'two or three witnesses' of scripture – but there are no others.

The first part of the scripture says: The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. There is only one other scripture that refers to a 'broken spirit.' Let's take a look.

Prov. 17:22(KJV) A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit dries the bones.

Hmmm… something doesn't seem right. Well, something isn't right – but we'll get to that in a moment.

I believe that God is a GOOD God – All the time. And that He sent Jesus (among other reasons) to "…preach the gospel to the poor; … heal the brokenhearted, … preach deliverance to the captives, … recovering of sight to the blind, (and) to set at liberty them that are bruised…"

God wants you WHOLE, complete, nothing missing nothing broken! Physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, financially, etc… That's what I believe - and the scriptures back it up. WHOLE is the complete opposite of broken.

Mat. 9:22 But Jesus turned him about, and when he saw her, he said, Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole. And the woman was made whole from that hour.

Mat.12:13 Then saith He to the man, Stretch forth thine hand. And he stretched it forth; and it was restored whole, like as the other.

Mat. 14:36 And besought Him that they might only touch the hem of His garment: and as many as touched were made perfectly whole.

Mat. 15:28 Then Jesus answered and said unto her, O woman, great is thy faith: be it unto thee even as thou wilt. And her daughter was made whole from that very hour.
Mat. 15:31 Insomuch that the multitude wondered, when they saw the dumb to speak, the maimed to be whole, the lame to walk, and the blind to see: and they glorified the God of Israel.

John 5:6 When Jesus saw him lie, and knew that he had been now a long time in that case, he saith unto him, Wilt thou be made whole?

Acts 9:34 And Peter said unto him, Aeneas, Jesus Christ maketh thee whole: arise, and make thy bed. And he arose immediately.

And this is without getting into the Greek breakdowns of the words "salvation" and "prosperity" – which also include the meaning WHOLE!

Next let's look at the second half of the scripture, which says: A broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

The sister scripture to this one is Psalms 34:18-19.

Psa. 34:18 The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

Psa. 34:19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.

What these passages are saying is simply this: God does not and will not condemn you for being broken in some way – but He does NOT want you to STAY broken!

  The Hebrew word used here for the word "contrite" does not mean humble – but it rather means "crushed to powder."

The state of brokenness, being crushed and oppressed is NOT from God. However, God will NEVER leave you or forsake you. He will stay near you, and if you let Him, He will deliver you out of it!
In vs. 19 it says that these things are afflictions! BAD THINGS, not good things!

So then what's wrong with Psalms 51:17? When ever I come across a scripture that seems to conflict with several others, I dig into the original language to see what other definitions are available. When I did this here, I found it very interesting.

The King James English reads:
Psa. 51:17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

In Hebrew the scripture reads:
zebach . 'elohiym . shabar . ruwach. Shabar . Dakah . leb . 'elohiym . bazah
… and can also be translated as follows:

Sacrifice to God is the birthing of the Spirit. - or - Sacrifice to God is the quenching of anger.
A humble heart God will not condemn. – or – A broken/crushed/oppressed heart God will not condemn.

As you can see, the ONLY scripture that is used to support a doctrine of "Christian Brokenness" is highly likely to have been at least partly mistranslated and wholly misunderstood.

Now I know what people MEAN when they say that a Christian should become "broken." They really mean bringing the body (flesh) and soul (mind, will and emotions) under the control of the spirit. And that IS completely scriptural! But that process, starting with the renewal of the mind, is a process of becoming WHOLE!

You (the real you) are a spirit, you have a soul (mind, will and emotions) and you live in a body (your Earth suit). When the Bible refers to your "heart" it's not referring to your "blood pump."

In the Bible the HEART is the combination of your SPIRIT and SOUL. When you are born-again, your SPIRIT is renewed but your SOUL is not. Therefore even the born-again Christian can still have a broken HEART. It was completely broken, but now that your SPIRIT is made new, your HEART is half way healed.

Now through the Word of God, The Name of Jesus and the broken body of Jesus we are instructed to begin the process of the renewal of the mind. Once that process is under way, the will and emotions will follow. The further you progress through this renewal process, the more WHOLE your heart becomes.

God doesn't BREAK you so that He can make you WHOLE any more than you would break your child's leg so that you could nurse him back to health! That's sick!  


Christian WHOLENESS and "Christian Brokenness" are completely incompatible. Every Christian should fully appropriate EVERYTHING that Jesus has done for us to make us WHOLE in every way. Even though some Christians may remain broken in some areas of their life, no Christian should be content in remaining broken. And NO Christian should EVER seek to become broken in any way. TGM

Tim Greenwood

 

Press on . . .
You are beloved of the Father in Heaven . . . forgive those who have hurt you . . . including yourself . . .be encouraged!
Rest in God's acceptance of you . . .
Rest in His affection for you . . .

Still Dark

 
Still dark and a little chilly on a Spring morning in Georgia, I pulled into the gas station near where I had spent the night. Busily pumping gas, I glimpsed into the well-lit convenience store attached to almost all gas stations these days, and I spotted him - a man in his 30's, happily, hurriedly mopping his assigned part of his world - the floors. Soon to be tracked in, traced by, and stepped on by hundreds of feet, he nonetheless attacked his daily task with not only a vengeance, but a seeming cheerfulness.

Wow! I thought - that's how we all should approach our daily tasks. What I would deem as menial - and maybe he did too, he worked at with a flourish and a "pop" as Rachel Ray would say, that inspired me as the gas pump clunked to indicate my job was finished there. All in a day's work - his was probably just beginning - mine was newly inspired and it was Still Dark . . .

Proverbs 15:13
A merry heart maketh a cheerful contenance!

Proverbs 15:16
Better is little with the fear of the Lord than great treasure and trouble therewith.
It will be worth it all when everything is said and done! Hang in there!
If God could help me . . .

You can overcome too beloved . . .

Revelation 12:11

"And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death."

KJV

I would like to share with you what God has done for me through the worst times of my life!

God has upheld me and let me know that there is nothing that can separate us from His love.

And when I say broken-hearted, I mean hurting so badly that I
couldn't eat or sleep! Are you like that?

I mean, nothing, not death, nor disappointment, nor betrayal,
nor pain, or divorce, nor drugs, nor alcohol, nor lying, nor
stealing of your love or someone else’s - nothing.

Walk straight into moments that have always scared you.

Follow through and achieve what your heart is yearning to do.

If you truly want to heal, you must heal in your mind, your heart, your soul, your spirit (your personality), and your body.


Right now, you may feel as if you are just barely surviving. I understand. I have been there. I have been in the pit of darkness in my soul and my mind and my spirit. Do not despair. Do not die of a broken heart. It is possible. Don't be one of those. You are stronger than you think you are are.

When you come to the realization that when all else fails around you, God is there, you will find some peace. When you come to the certainty that no one gets off this planet alive, you begin to realize that- hey! maybe it is time I check out about the after this life stuff called - eternity. Are you ready for that?

Is your heart broken? As my gift to you, I want to point you to those books that I read when my heart was too heavy to do anything, but just listen to those around me "live" since I was only merely existing at the time, trying to put one foot in front of the other, just to get up and brush my teeth was a supreme effort. Do you know what I mean?

Have you ever been that brokenhearted?

Have you ever been that low? If you have, you need inspiration, and I found the best inspiration in the world came from Proverbs in the Bible. So---I began writing and Proverbs - God's own words became real to me again. Hope it helps you or someone you know whose heart is crushed by tragedy and we all experience that in our lives if we live long enough.

No matter what has happened to you, YOU determine your attitude towards it.

God is near when you cry out "help me!"

Please help me . . . God I need You!

Today is the beginning of the rest of your life in . . . healing

Although I was slowly accepting God's love for me, I had thirty five years of pent-up emotion that had to be released if I was going to put my depression behind me. God showed me over my healing process how it was possible to leave it all behind trust and follow Him. To trust Him is to know Him, and to trust Him is to allow Him to work in you life.



Healing Hands




I was a shattered crystal vase
lying there in pain.
I had such very little hope
of being whole again.

I laid in a thousand fragments
crushed beyond repair.
You tenderly gathered up each piece
and glued with loving-care.

Your hands, they never tired.
Your comfort never ceased.
until the crystal vase once more
stood there without a crease.

Jesus, I’m truly grateful.
My God I offer praise.
For through Your loving nail pierced hands
You’ve healed this broken vase.

Grace Gayle

Oh God . . . help me!
Allow Him to Lift you up!

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