You Are A Child Of God!
By Miss Shelly
other morning the Intercessor woke up around 2:30 am. She was glad because when she spends more time with the Lord, it just means more of His presence. Usually, she gets up at three am. And, after 30 years, she finds herself to be truly addicted
to His presence. Oh don’t get me wrong. There have been many mornings when something didn’t click and it took a long time to break through to achieve that desperately desirable unconditional love and acceptance. But for the most
part, she has become totally hooked on the presence of the Most High God, who unconditionally loves her, despite anything else!
Anyway, this morning was one of those. Yes, after 30 years. For some unforeseen reason, she could
not breakthrough the onslaught of the enemy filling her head with perverted thoughts, threats and voices from the dark side. Bringing up her past. She didn’t understand! It didn’t make any sense. How could she comprehend that
the enemy had access into her dwelling secret place?
It was only yesterday, when she got up around 1:30 am and felt it was too early for her, so she went to the bathroom and thought about the possibility of someone breaking in her home,
as that thought many times comes to her at night. But she cast that imagination down, and covered her home with the Blood of the Lamb, proclaiming that, “anything and everything entering this home is covered and drenched in the Blood of Jesus!”
Whatever is there, not of God, usually flees immediately! She loosed the warring angels to encamp about her, “lest she dash her foot against a stone.” Then, she goes right back to sleep with no more thought from the dark side provoking her!
She knows how to take authority, as she knows that she is a child of God and she has the authority in the name of Jesus! So, when she went to sleep, however, and just between the falling into sleep and the deep REM sleep mode,
all of a sudden she dreamed about a door wide open! Her dream startled her, and thoughts again flooded her mind as she anticipated, “Could this be a warning?” or “What is this all about?” Thinking about possible invasion of her
home once again.
Nevertheless, looking closer, she realized the door was white instead of her mahogany door at the entrance to her home, and instead of looking out onto the street in her city, she was looking out onto some kind of huge
bush with leaves on it! The bush literally filled the doorway! She could see nothing else but this “barrier of shrubbery from the heavenly side,” she supposed.
So immediately after her first response, she realized God
was speaking to her in a visual short dream, though she be half asleep. Later that morning she remembered vividly that vision of the bush in the doorway completely opened for her to see. So she asked God to show her what He was trying to speak
to her in the night season. The Lord led her to “the Garden” songs with Kari Jobe.
He wanted her to know that she was covered, dwelling in the secret place (the garden) of His, under His shadow! She didn’t
have to fear any longer because she is a child of His! “What was I thinking?” “I know the truth in my brain, but if I could plant it on the tablets of my heart and soul, I know I would be set free!” “Why do we doubt Him?”
She proclaimed to herself. All she ever wanted was to be totally set free from all this torment of fear and unbelief that has been her constant companions most of her life, because of the things that have happened in her past.
help my unbelief!”
The truth is, if it hadn’t of been for the adversity and tribulation throughout her life, creating this brokenness; she wouldn’t have been so desperate for her Savior! Let’s face it; God
has a plan for each and every one of us. His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us, but give us an expected end! Believe it! But there is an enemy going about to and fro, looking for God’s children, and seeking whom he could devour,
constantly bombarding us with lies and deceit. He uses angry human vessels, which are also abused and broken, but willingly rise up against us and possibly cause tribulation for us. She heard, “love your neighbor as yourself beloved.”
“Forgive them, for they truly don’t know what they do!” Nonchalantly. He always wants our response to be with Love.
“Oh God, help me!” She proclaimed. All she wanted to do is become the overcomer
that God called her to be. He is a gentleman, and will not force Himself upon her. There are universal boundaries and rules of law set before the beginning of time. She has to invite Him to come and draw near and He will draw near to her,
and call upon Him and He will answer with “great and mighty things she does not know.”
So once again, she remembers she has been drawing near for some 30 years. The visions and dreams He has exposed her to, gave
her revelation after revelation of His Word and of His unconditional Love for her. This will be something that she will experience for eternity, just like the Angels who surround God and His throne day in and day out! It’s a new revelation
of Him as they circle His throne, and they cry out “Holy, Holy, Holy” in so much awe.
Anyway, today she couldn’t shake the “snake” so easily biting as in the past into the fire, though she proclaimed
the Word passionately. She couldn’t stop the voices and the onslaught of the enemy.
The Intercessor finally came to the conclusion that, “God’s allowing this!” “What is He trying to teach me?”
Thoughts of the abuse of her past literally flooded to the forefront of her mind! Thoughts of past sins brushed her mind like a sharp instrument scraping her memory up things she thought were already forgotten, forgiven and covered in
the Blood! “What is going on?” the Intercessor deeply considered. All she wanted to do was throw these thoughts into the fire of God, perishing each memory! “Forgive me Father God!” She cries out in despair, not believing
that she had already repented. “What’s it going to take to be no longer tormented by these thoughts? She lamented.
“I was there!” She finally heard. “Know that I loved
you in your sin.”
“That doesn’t make any sense!” She thought to herself.
“I love you in the abuse and rejection from others around you!”
you just the way you are!”
“You are completely acceptable to Me!”
“You are completely forgiven!”
“My Love covers you!” “My Love covers
a multitude of sin . . . of your sin!”
The Lord’s Love then embraced her, holding her so tight and kissing her again and again! She saw in the spirit, the Lord holding her. Tears streamed immediately down her face,
as the Intercessor’s thoughts filled with each sin or abuse that occurred throughout her life! “I was there!” He proclaimed to her so gently and lovingly. “I was there, and there, and over there!”
He proceeded to show her life to her, with all the horrible abuse and sin that occurred that was not hidden before His eyes. “Oh my precious daughter!” Tears streamed down HIS eyes with compassion!
She could feel the hot stream of unconditional Love and acceptance flow on her as He held her tight. The two lamented and wept together. She had never experienced this intimacy with the Lord before.
“Oh God . .
. Oh Lord . . . You are so good to me!” Tears flowing as the waves of Love embraced her.
She listened to worship music and deeply wept for quite some time, letting her past and sin be cleansed and fade completely out of her
thoughts. She longingly wanted to let Him know how much she loved Him back. “I want to Love You as You Love me she whispered.” Knowing she was truly incapable of returning this kind of Love back herself.
by as the last of the last essence of His presence finally faded. But she knew, without a doubt now, that she was deeply loved, and adored by her Father in Heaven deep within the layers of her heart and soul. It was no longer just in her mind and
thoughts. She knows that she is truly a child of the Most High God! No more doubts, nor more questions, and no more fear, for His love casts out all the fear and covers her multitude of sins, past,
present and future. “Oh God, thank You for this revelation!”
So know this beloved reader. God is no respecter of persons. The Intercessor is no different than you! All it takes is a willing soul to draw
near each day to our beloved Father in Heaven and allow Him to reveal Himself to you as your Abba Father! No longer will you think you are an orphan sweet one! You are a child of God!